Can You See The Real Me?

I know those around me have seen the emotional struggle I've been going through for what seems like forever....I know my emotions seem extreme and have been told that. I wish sometimes people could see what's really going on in my life and in my head (past and present) so they could really understand me, but I know that is not possible and that is not going to happen, and honestly, I don't think anyone would know what to do with that information anyway. What I DO wish....is that people could see the real me. The me that is trying to see the world more positively and with direction. The me that is clawing to get out of the hole. The me that has self-esteem and confidence. The me that wants to live life to the fullest, to laugh with abandon, to be happy and bring joy to those I come in contact with. The me that wants to love and be loved unconditionally. I want you to see that I do not want to be messed up and that I am trying to rise above everything I've been through...maybe someday I will share what those things are, maybe I won't....it really doesn't matter because all those things are in the past or soon will be.  I guess what I'm trying to say is....please don't give up on me.  The real me is fighting to find herself again.