Where Is My Life's Navigation System Taking Me?

Am I on the right road? Am I going in the right direction? Should I go a different route? Do I even KNOW where I'm going?? Those are some questions that I am asking myself right now which of course led to another restless, sleep-deprived night. I have dreams and plans for some things that have been culminating over a period of time and seem to finally be coming together. My mind has been swirling with ideas and thoughts that have been written down on paper and are actually being put into action as I take charge of my life. Yesterday, I had an epiphany that seemed to be another puzzle piece that fit so beautifully into a project I am working on that actually gave that project more of a purpose than I could have ever imagined. My excitement was uncontainable as I thought more and more about what I was going to do. Imagine: A project with a PURPOSE. ha. That is exactly what I preach about so many things....if there is not a point or a purpose, why do it? I truly felt as if this epiphany or lightbulb that came on in my thought process was truly God-driven and God-inspired. I know this project will take a lot of time before it is completed and comes into fruition, but I was so excited that I wanted to get it done as soon as possible so that I could possibly make a difference in this world and benefit others besides myself. (And no, I'm not revealing the idea just yet until I have it well underway....I just don't want to deal with skeptics and pessimists. I don't have time for them.)  So as my mind is taking off on all these things last night, I am presented (totally out-of-the blue) with a job opportunity....a different road.  As I read the email with this job description, a part of me was SO excited as it described the responsibilities and qualifications...it was me to a T.  The catch: I could see where this would easily be a 60-80 hour a week job including days, nights, weekends, my blood, sweat and tears and my life. Then I began to think about the organization I would be working for. Are they self-serving or are they people who are doing things for others...I'm not entirely sure. I had a sinking feeling in my stomach as I thought of my son, whom I homeschool. He would be alone all the time if I took this. I need the money this job would bring (desperately), but is that the reason to change the course that was on my life's navigation system? I thought of all my plans, my dreams, all the things I've been working on...my new project and its new purpose...  Do I just package all that up and file it away again under "dreams never realized"? I already have a drawer full of those files. So I am weighing it all out but I think I already know the answer. Its like the perfect distraction, the proverbial carrot dangling in front of me full of promises but not really happiness. I try looking beyond whats right in front of me and into the future and its consequences of whatever action I take and not just the immediate results. Bottom line: Whatever road I choose, I want to make sure I am on the right one~one that has God's blessing and favor~one that is God-inspired. hhmmmm.